Steppin on the EDGE of Light
I was “waiting in vain” again this morning. Two hours of sitting in a reception area. Two hours of waiting in limbo for this “hoping-to-be-the-right-way” opportunity. But this time, waiting in vain feels just fine.
(1) it wasn’t a “cold” reception area a while ago. Thanks to ms. mimi and ms. xenia
(2) suddenly appearing right in front of me, leaving me in complete awe…was Mark Nicdao (shet starstruck daw ako)! Actually he just dropped by for a few minutes, but the aftershock lasted all of two hours.
Who is Mark Nicdao? He is one of those who has greatly inspired me with just coming across their names and stories. I first heard about him when Mike gave me his number for our docu project (hallew kir!). CAM din daw siya who was starting to make it big time as a photographer that time. That was barely two years ago. And since that docu had radically changed, we never got the to push through that interview with Mark. Then come May this year (kasagsagan ng pagiging homebuddy ko), I was going through old newspaper for interesting articles before sending them to the junkshop. I encountered his name again in an article by (name to follow). Bilib ako at nahikayat ako wag bumitaw sa pangarap na 'to! Geez! This guy surely has the talent, the eye. And more importantly, the passion to see and let others see. But fortunately, he was blessed with good fate and he probably made the right choices.
Hay…>>>deep sigh<<< Reading about how he started and how he had made his way (can we call it a grand entrance) to the field of photography was surely inspiring. It left me hoping that good fate will also pour itself on me, although it made me recall the choices that I had made before. And sometimes, (as much as I don’t want to and as much as I don’t believe in regrets) I couldn't avoid some cognitive dissonance. Let’s talk about timing… Hay… >>>deep sigh ulit<<< …hmmp…enough na…I don’t want to think of more could-have-beens…
Anyway, I’m keeping my fingers crossed. I believe that I’ve recharged myself and this time, I’m trying to do something again. I’m trying to be active instead of simply being passive. Instead of simply waiting (though I still have that patience to wait) for the chance to do what I’ve always dreamed of doing, I’m trying to look for that chance…trying to find what fate can offer me. And I hope I can make/am making the right choices this time.
Posted at 07:15 am by roreel
